“Running from Myself” with Alcohol

Where the fuck do I begin… I grew up in Southern Ohio ,and live in Michigan now. For 20 years I was an alcoholic and sometimes didn’t even realize it. I grew up pretty well… no real issues there. I think at some point I started to kind of want to escape. I remember at a young age, thinking when someone made fun of me or when I felt any emotion I didn’t want to feel, I would run from it.

When I was 16 or so I discovered alcohol. I remember it was like the equivalent of someone making this great discovery. I had found something that made me feel better, when I felt bad. I’m quick to remember certain lyrics about this. I spent the next 20 something years running from myself. Skip to 2021… I went to rehab and got clean off alcohol for the first time in 20 years. Everything was supposed to be amazing. My girlfriend and I were going to buy a house and be a family with her kids from a previous marriage. Long story short we broke up, I got covid, and a few months later I was diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. The past few years has been an absolute nightmare. I am reminded of the phrase ” I wouldn’t wish this on my worst enemy.” That phrase doesn’t even cut it. I spend my days just trying to get by. I will be on the SS Neverender in October 2023 and can’t wait! Much love and hope.